How I hope this finds you in
good health. Living away from you conjures up feelings so alien to me I have
trouble sleeping. While bouncing on a highway that takes me away from my love
and towards an uncertain future, I stare at the moon with a new fondness,
remembering the way it cast that wonderfully gentle light upon your vast soil.
I am perpetually, day in and day out, wondering if I could have ever defeated
that "monster," that evil institution, the root of my suffering(30).
But ultimately I knew that it would win and that my efforts to keep you were
just futile gestures of my affection. I was left "so hurt and so
perplexed" by their actions, I never thought you would be taken from me by
those means(34). For so long I had tried to keep you, I "had to kill the
Indians and drive them away"(33). I felt no qualms for it. I was willing
to spill blood to have you in my life. I gladly took the role of "the
servant," and cherished each acre of your being (37). And I did so because
every measurable labor I invested in you was unequally reciprocated, you always
giving me more. My source of life, you are much "stronger than [me]"
and I can never ask for anything more than for you to understand why I had to
leave (37). Just know that it was no choice of mine to leave the most integral
part of my being.
Best Wishes and Much Love,Grandpa
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